...NoW ThaT I aM=)

...Of course I am to make myself a blog, Bday ko rin nah..haha!

..Wow..2o years of living. If I am to write a book about my life for the past 20 years, it would possess perhaps ten volumes? hehe..As everyone knows, I met storms and hurricanes on my way here. I went through tough times I never thought I would be able to survive them. And along the way, I met different people and with that I also became different 'rays'. People have known me to be this tough girl some even idolized because of experiences. But you know what? Even if people describe me differently, if I'll be asked ' who's ray?', I won't be able to give a direct and clear answer. That's one of the things I tried answering for the past few years of my life. What do I want? Where do I wanna go? Who am I? Questions, Questions and never answered.


Now that I am an "adult', I think it's time to answer those. I think, after many pondering, I Finally know what I have long been finding.


Since my childhood, I have been with many group of people. And if you ask them to describe me, they would give you different answers to the extinct you'll think they are describing other rays. hehe.Who was my first best friend? It's shiro, shocked? hehe. We were best friends and best enemies. With her, I was the weakling always with a hairstyle hehe. I was the little missy, "maarte", and the shy girl who would not answer nor volunteer in the class. And then Shi and I were separated by childish 'aways' and I was lead to our ex-enemy memet(hehe). I became part of the " Raffjoes". I was the bunso of the group na parating inaapi ni si shiba.hahaha! Not really, she was always against my way f dressing; no style daw hehe. Memet and Pawie would always back me up and fight for me (awwww...love you ates! hehe) My Dear dear mom would ask them to look out for. I was the 'mute' in the class who, sometimes, would not talk for hours. I was never seen smiling too. My teachers got worried they thought I was possessed! haha! Who was ray during elementary? Mahinhin daw..maarte..silent..sad...shy...and coward..hehe..


Unexpectedly, I was placed in a super different group of people. I spent my first year in Balo-i. They saw me to be 'unique'. Guess what? I was the muse of the class! hahaha! I was ms. pretty from the city. From them, I learned to joke around, to laugh out loud out of nothing. I became out spoken, tough, and would fight anyone who would try to bring me down (char!). After a year, I came back in Marawi and hello DC! All my friends were a bit shocked of how I turned to be anther person. I would always answer in the class, join all the clubs I was invited. I had a louder voice heard by everyone. I became the 'boyish ray'. For the swallow boys, I was 'pres. batungkal' their buddy in the class who could ride with them. For the Narra, I was the 'snob' new comer, for the Mendel I was the ' mainitin ang ulo'.hehe. Things changed and I was separated to bez met and shiv. I became a 'mohir'. Iwas the ' this is not he real me girl with tons of predicaments in life and love'. They saw me to be that strong girl whom they askd for advises. from then on, I became that 'ray': an adviser, fighter, and sad. I was the ambitious girl who would want to reach the top of the world even I will be lonely at the top. I did nt dream of a family. Money, success, and travel were all in my head. Thank God I fail in Accountancy! haha!

Then I met the Bakas people of Ems..so mga ribal roo ah..hehehe. At first, I did not jive with them. they thought I was this serious always with a frowning face snob. But later on, they saw how crazy I could be! I learned to enjoy.. as in the real sense of the word. From then on, many freaking realizations crept in my brain.hehe..


In college, I ask myself, from these rays hat people knew, who is the real me? That took four years of pondering. And the Answer? I am me=) An ordinary woman with a simple dream=) I have a heart to help the unfortunate. Whenever I help an old person or poor kid, I can't explain the happiness inside my bursting. It even brings me to tears. I hope one day, I will be an instrument to help them live a better life. I love my family that I am dedicating my studies t them. I want to see them happy=) I love my friends and it is always my happiness to give them something, to surprise them. You know why I always try to Surprise all of you? because seeing all of you smile, makes me so happy=) I dream of teaching English and that's that. My ultimate dream? To be a good Mother to my children and the best wife to my husband=) I believe I am sent here as a woman because I am to fulfill that position. And at long last, I know what I want : I WANT TO BE A CHEF! yes! juday na juday! hehe...

..TO EVERYONE THANK YOU! I wont mention names and endearments beacuse it will take a long list, hehe... you all make my life worth living! THANK YOU FOR ROCKING MY LIFE!



..to pardz,, ( exception,hehe) thank you for everything. you are my greatest blessing, fOr the lOve, care, everything, you are my happiness, my love, my man, I am running out Of time so in short, YOU ARE THE BEST! I LOVE YOU MUCH MUCH!